Adoption:the good, the bad, the waiting

4 weeks.....one month....that's how long it's been since we last heard about the adoption. So, we still don't know if they have approved us to adopt her or not. And I need to know! And today would have been a great day to know! But yesterday came & went, just like today. Without any news. Just silence! No news again. So again,I say I need to know! 

But then again.....don't I already know.

I mean doesn't every fiber within me just "know" that she's the one! Wasn't my spirit quickened when I got that phone call with her referral 1 month ago? There have been too many signs, too many confirmations, divine appointments for her not to be "her"! 

So do I need to know? Do I need proof, when God has already said so to my heart? Isn't faith the evidence I need? So if I really think about it with my Faith eyes on, I guess I don't need them to tell me or a paper to say it! A mother knows her child! I knew it the moment I got the call, before I even saw her face. I knew I was her mother. So I knew before they did! 

So it's safe to say.....they need to know!